amber's Blog
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inside
i have so many questions that run through my head everyday. but there is only one thought that is in my heart and i know it to be true. my heart beats for him it yearns for his touch and his embrace. my lips yearn for his kiss. my arms ache to be around him to feel safe hand in hand with him. I know my heart skips a beat when i think of him. it jumps when i talk to him. it nearly stops at the thought of his kiss on my lips. Inside myself my heart is set on him. Now if only if i could get my mind to believe what my heart already knows i wouldnt have questions running through my mind every day that try to sway my heart away. I love him. i know in my heart i do. my mind wants to believe it but my heart has been fooled a few times before and my mind isnt ready to believe that it can be true that someone can love me so much. my mind has doubts yet my heart has none. When im in his arms i know all doubts will fade away. I will then know what i feel inside is true beyond all doubts. -
thoughts
i find myself sitting alone and just letting my mind wander. then i find my mind always seems to wander to thoughts of him. he consumes my mind my heart and my soul. i find myself dreaming of him every night and thinking of him all day everyday. dreaming of his arms around me. dreaming of his lips against mine. it feels so real that i can swear when i wake my lips tingle at the kiss he left upon them, my arms ache to return to their rightful place around him once more and never let go. i think constantly of the day that he will be here. i think constantly of my feelings that consume my heart and mind for him. -
always and forever
i thought my heart would never heal it had been hurt so many times in the past, he makes me smile, he makes me laugh, he reminds me that i know how to love, i wait to read his messages every morning, im always to busy working to hear his voice like i want to, i cant wait to look into his eyes for the first time, i cant wait to kiss his lips for the first time, i cant wait to be in his arms for the first time. I cant wait to be his always and forever. my heart i thought was cold he so quickly thawed and claimed. my soul i thought was gone so black he so quickly pulled off the edge and pulled to his twisted them together so carefully. my love i thought was gone for good that i could not love another he quickly showed me that i still remembered how and that i could love so deep and so true. I cant wait til my dreams come true. ive already pictured the day in my mind in my dreams so many times of how it would be. Walking hand in hand simple white dress, amythest purple beaded necklace and trim to the simple vail in my hair, no shoes on our feet, his hand guideing me alongside the river as we make our way walking to our always and forever. -
always alone
Current mood:
never seems to fail when i think ive met someone that understands but in the end it turns out to be a lie no one cares its all a lie im forever alone and it is always the same and i have no always no romance no heart always alone is how i am.
indifferent
I loves you sweetheart. You are the bestist. SMILE because you are beautiful.